Forgeting is easier said than done
If one could turn around and the feelings disapeared
Life would be so much easier
"Its not that I love you...
Its that I just don't LOVE you...
Anymore that is
because I need...
I need something
but what I don't know
is that why I push you away?
Is that why I cry myself to sleep
and cry out in terrors of the night
that make me think you left me?
and then I wake
realizing the cold hard reality you didn't leave
but I did
I left because I was scared
did you know that?
I left because I loved you
cause I knew we would be together always
from that first wonderful night
the one now that you swear you didn't know my name
but you did
Those beautiful letters that form one beautiful name
And when we splahed in the pond or warmed up in the shower
Brownies... you always had to crack the eggs
I was always so bad
getting eggshell in the bowl
The time at the park
playing PS2 in your bed
Ill never know if you just let me beat you
you tickling me till I begged for mercy
but out of all of those days
One
Just one
Stands clear in my mind
At the same time as I asked you
You asked me...
to marry you
Till this day you'll say you asked first
And I'll say I did
But this memoir isn't about any of this
Actually I just wrote it all down
jut to tell you if for some reason you
change your mind
or some such
I will marry you